Man, finally de-stressing

after all the hell that was last week, i finally feel that i am starting to unwind a bit. i think friday was the most stressed out and on edge i have been for many years. luckily i didnt have to deal with my prick dad, but just having him in the room was almost too much to handle.

after not talking to him for 2 and a half years i have come to the conclusion, beyond a doubt, that there is no way to salvage any sort of relationship with that fucker. i am so emotionally turned off to him that there is nothing he could say or do to cause me to actually reconsider this. fuck him. the end.

could do it drunk and or buzzed. lame.

Oh man. really not looking forward to seeing/dealing with my dad tomorrow at this memorial thing with the family. glad mom and Kat will be there. don't think I

Hopefully this long, short week will end soon. It was far too heavy a weekend to be able to sufficiently deal with this nonsense in a rational way.

heavy shit = no god

i have beyond a doubt come to the conclusion that there is most definitely no god. after a long good life someone goes through so much pain and stress that their only option in their eyes is to end themselves. what kind of loving omnipotent being would have that be "part of his plan". what a fucking crock of shit.

so we can tell what i hate the most based on the fucking lame dream i had last night. d and i were fixing something in our house, when we discovered ANOTHER FUCKING WATER LEAK!!!!! this one was in a crazy rat's nest of pipes that was under our dresser for some god awful reason. woke up in dread, but soon realized that it was only my brain being a douche. heres hoping that this one doesnt actually happen.

now off to photoshop some more patterns for mom. look at me, im working while im not at work lol.

This is a test. This is only a test.

Firsties

dont really know why i felt like starting a blog, but hey, here it is. this will be the rantings and ravings of some random asshole. i will be talking about movies, games, magic, life, retards, and various other sorts of fucked up shit.